I’ve decided that maybe it is time to start recording all the random thoughts I have in my head and share them with the rest of the world. The question is: Should the internal monologue in someone’s head really be open for everyone to hear? I guess the answer is that maybe you shouldn’t share everything but isn’t that part of the purpose of keeping a blog. Do I edit what I say so that certain people don’t get hurt by what I say? Hmm…It occurs to me that in the information era that we are entering maybe there is such thing as too much information.

Part of the reason these concerns come to mind is that I’ve been troubled by a problem that I never had to deal with before. I recently ended a relationship with someone that I met on a online dating service. In the course of our relationship she became quite fond of my website and putting things up for everyone to see which was great…at the time. Now, she has in window into my life that no ex-girlfriend has had before. In the good ol’ days before the Internet, when you broke up with someone you didn’t have to worry about them finding out stuff about your current life (aside from the usual grapevine). If I didn’t want her to know I was dating someone else…not much of a problem. If I didn’t want her to know that I’m happy/sad/ambivilent it wasn’t a problem. Ah, but now, she has the photo gallery to look at and she can see what pictures I have posted or infer certain things by the fact that there are no pictures. She can look to see if my profile is up on the dating sites. And, of course, she has this to read now.

With all the concerns to think about the natural question is: then why have a website? Well, I think it is better for me to share these things in my life with the rest of the world, no matter what the consequences. As many of you know, I am not exactly the most open person in the world. My life has been spent being only able to depend on myself. Having the Navy move my family around every 3 years and having very busy parents and no siblings taught me to be self-reliant. Being self-reliant is not a bad thing. It has helped me achieved the successes I enjoy today. However, it does come some drawbacks and one of those is not learning how to share my thoughts and feelings with the people I care about. So, this is my chance to open myself up to my friends (whether I’ve met you or not) and maybe it’ll help me discover a new side of myself that I never knew.

Plus, who says ex’s can’t be friends?
P.S. I hate the Yankees…those damn Yankees!

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